Abuser to my insides...

I am still in relapse, recovery mode. I am 24 years young and a single parent to a beautiful 4 year old boy. I have an eating disorder. I was free for almost three months, when I relapsed. I will not be defeated again, I am stronger and wiser, to the tricks of my illness. I have registered for closed groups, started personal training program and will beat this.
I started my illness after a very abusive relationship, and seeing my sister battle anorxia. I started to compete with her in a deadly game, she won!!!
Or did she, she is 70 pounds and thinks she is hot and healthy. I now see her fading away before my eyes. I am 140 pounds and feel great, however to maintain this weight I must eat healthy. Hello relapse, I crave all the yummy things ( cookies, cakes, icecream, burgers) and all these don't fit in with my new healthy lifesysle.
So help me from myself, I am in phase one again, starting Day 1 of not purging December 3 2007.
My goal for 2008, is to be healthy and hopefully 30+ days purge free.

I have suffered from my illness for almost 4 years.
I will not waste my life anymore.
I send my prayers and hope to anyone suffering with an eating disorder, god bless and be healthy.

Mom on a long road...